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童年就是我的避風港。


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rant on stinky ppl / Tuesday, March 31, 2009 @ 3/31/2009 06:43:00 PM
/ Monday, March 30, 2009 @ 3/30/2009 07:10:00 PM
today sorta sucks...
1. i forgot to bring a lot of stuff (luckily called my mother and she brought on time)
2. got caught cutting queue by huang lao shi
3. got scolded for not bringing recorder

-good thing-
1. mdm koh let us play game but it was kinda lame... 

more random pics :D / Sunday, March 29, 2009 @ 3/29/2009 04:03:00 PM


how to be gangster / Saturday, March 28, 2009 @ 3/28/2009 08:24:00 PM
random pics / @ 3/28/2009 11:11:00 AM


how to be emo / Friday, March 27, 2009 @ 3/27/2009 09:14:00 PM
/ @ 3/27/2009 07:49:00 PM
week one finish liao~! :D got back compo... got 28 >.< (luckily nvr fail)

today was lyk summer sia... went to play tennis and the floor was burning!!! 

and...
HAPPY B'DAY CHERYL
/ Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @ 3/25/2009 10:00:00 PM
ms lam was ok today... hope she dun scold tmr. she was toking abt women overpowering men in the next generation den she said she was toking rubbish

RG was darn fun today. they showed us some water plants den madeline,astrid and me started playing wif the fish. we were lyk trying to carry them up to the surface and tried to grap the tail >:) 

during learning lab, we did picture discussion and deborah and dawn said one of the ppl has fish lips XD
how to be nerd / @ 3/25/2009 01:04:00 PM
/ Tuesday, March 24, 2009 @ 3/24/2009 05:41:00 PM
today was bad.
1. ms lam kept on scolding us ._____.
2. we changed place (to mdm koh, changing places means moving groups from one place to another)
3. ashleigh left earlier. so lonely... den i had to sit next to jing rong for sup class (whoa! shu zhen has a lot of things under her desk)
how to be ninja / @ 3/24/2009 05:41:00 PM
/ Monday, March 23, 2009 @ 3/23/2009 09:53:00 PM
today wasn't rly good... 
1. we hav a lot of homework
2. ms lam scolded us

aftermath of too much hols...
1. i wanted to sleep
2. i was really sleepy in class
3. i forgot there was CCA
/ Sunday, March 22, 2009 @ 3/22/2009 09:58:00 PM
i feel ridiculous. i'm using a pic of arron for art. =="
another quiz~ saw it on hazel's blog. hope u dun mind, hazel / @ 3/22/2009 10:42:00 AM
if you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
if you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
if you get 11-20, you are normal.
if you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
people who don’t have any are full of crap.
Tag 10 of your friends and find out whether or not they suffer paranoia.

I fear ...

[ ] black people
[x] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent (don’t wanna be one)
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
total so far: 3

[x] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[x] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
total so far: 8

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes<-- we're in singapore!
total so far: 9

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x]becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[x] growing up, old
total so far: 13

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
total: 14

I'm afraid of 14 out of 72 common fears.
movies in minutes- twilight / Saturday, March 21, 2009 @ 3/21/2009 06:33:00 PM


=="
-quiz [100 truths]- got it from yj's blog / @ 3/21/2009 02:42:00 PM
100 Truths! Copy and paste, then put in your own answers.

1. last beverage→ coke light

2. last phone call→ to my mum

3. last text message→ to nicole

4. last song you listened to→ 女生我最大-杨丞琳

5. last time you cried→ when my ipod crashed <--- emo

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice → of course not and i haven't dated anyone

7. been cheated on → nope

8. kissed someone & regretted it→ ==" wad do u think? i'm only 12!

9. lost someone special? → nope

10. been depressed? → nope

11. been drunk and threw up? → ==" UNDERAGE!!

12. LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: baby blue, white and indigo

THIS YEAR (2009) HAVE YOU:
13. Made new friends → yea

14. Fallen out of love → ==" wad do u think

15. Laughed until you cried → nope

16. Met someone who changed you → uhh... no

17. Found out who your true friends were → yea

18. Found out someone was talking about you→ yea, my mum <--- and she thinks i dun understand hokkien!

19. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ =="

20. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?→ All.

21. How many kids do you want to have→ ==

22. Do you have any pets → Used to

23. Do you want to change your name→ maybe?

24. What did you do for your last birthday? → i opened presents?

25. what time did you wake up today → 8.50am

26. What were you doing at midnight last night → rolling around the bed

27. Name something you CANNOT wait for → i dunno

28. Last time you saw your father→ uhh... 10 min ago?

29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? → Nothing

30. What are you listening to right now -> nothing unless u count my noisy aircon

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → no

32. What's getting on your nerves right now? → psle

33. Most visited webpage →www.facebook.com

34. Whats your real name → han xin yi (how did u noe me if u dun noe my name?!)

35. Nicknames→ ehh... plenty

36. Relationship Status → single

37. Zodiac sign → aquarius <-- is dat how u spell it?

38. Male or female or transgender? →female

39. Elementary School? → chiltern house,den holy grace

40. Primary School → TNS

41. High school → let's wait for my psle results

42. Hair color → dark brown

43. Long or short → long

44. Height → 1.55m <-- i feel short T.T

45. Do you have a crush on someone? → nope

46. What do you like about yourself? → i dunno

47. Piercings →no thx

48. Tattoos → NO THANK U

49. Righty or lefty → righty

FIRSTS :
50. First surgery → NIL

51. First piercing → NIL

52. First best friend → yi ling

53. First sport you joined → running i guess

54. First pet→ turtle (i think)

55. First vacation→ forgot. maybe florida or aussie or taiwan

56. First concert→ NIL

57. First crush→ NIL

RIGHT NOW:
58. Eating → ate my lunch

59. Drinking→ nth

60. Listening to → my bro and his frens yelling their heads off from the 3rd floor while they're playing mahjong

61. Waiting for → my mother to take her nap/ go out so i can watch 终极三国 (:

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids → nope

59. Want to get married → nope

60. Careers in mind → doctor

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

68. Lips or eyes → Eyes.

69. Hugs or kisses → Hugs.

70. Shorter or taller → taller

71. Older or Younger → older

72. Romantic or spontaneous → ?!

73. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms.

74. Sensitive or loud → loud

75. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship!

77. Trouble maker or hesitant → trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :

78. Kissed a stranger → No.

79. Drank hard liquor → No.

80. Lost glasses/contacts → No

81. Sex on first date → NO!

82. Broken someone's heart → Uh?

83. Had your own heart broken → no

85. Been arrested → No.

86. Turned someone down → no

87. Cried when someone died → yea...

88. Liked a friend that is a guy→ NIL

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yeah.

90. Miracles → Sometimes.

91. Love at first sight → sometimes

92. Heaven → no

93. Santa Claus → am i a 3-year-old or wad?!

95. Kiss on the first date? → ...

96. Angels → no

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → no

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No.

99. Why are you doing this? → I'm bored.

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Yepp.

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WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
wad's wrong wif u?!

I JUST REALISED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU.
=="

LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY! YOU'LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME.
==" are u emo or wad?

COME ON, SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO!
EMO!!!!!! GO CUT UR SELF!

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO!
i hate maths

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
== turn urself in to the mental hospital

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
i dunno

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN' PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
gimme both. i can go wif nicole :D

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
WTF IS UR PROB?!

I THINK I'M FALLING FOR YOU.
FALL OFF A CLIFF HOW ABOUT DAT?!

I CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT YOU.
then dun smile

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST AREN'T HIM/HER.
thank you(:

NOTHING!
ok

WHAT'S YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
wad for?

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
u wanna listen to HSM3's 'can i have this dance'? ok

MAY I ESCORT YOU?
go punch urself

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW?
==" enough wif the caps

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED.
wanna listen to taylor swift's love story? (lyrics: but you were everything to me I was begging you please don't go...)

WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET EYES?
0.0

-WHO's-

Who is in the house with you?
me, my mum, my bro and his frens

Who are you thinking about now?
no one

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
My mum

Whose house did you last go to?
charmaine (not the one in TNS)

Whose birthday is next?
dunno

Who was the LAST person you loved?
do i look lyk someone who hates the world?

Who do you hope will take this survey?
everyone who reads this

-WHAT's-

What was the last thing you ate?
some fruit dat i dunno wad's it's name

What was the last thing you drank?
coke light

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
my destop

What instant messaging service do you use?
microsoft messenger <--- all thx to my iMac

What is the colour you hate most?
bright pink and certain shades of green

What is your most used, 'away' message?
appear offline <-- is dat counted?

What is your favorite website?
www.facebook.com

What is your favorite shoe brand?
converse (but i dun hav converse shoes T.T)

What song are you currently hearing?
no music

-WHERE's-

Where do you live?
do u need to noe?

Where do you sleep?
my bed

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Singapore.

-WHEN's-

When is your birthday?
6 feb

When did you last burn a candle?
6 feb

When did you last see your dad?
half hour ago?

-WHY's-

Why do we have to go to school?
we are FORCED to go to school and it's a LAW dat all kids go to school

Why are you taking this survey?
I'm bored


finally done! :D
/ Friday, March 20, 2009 @ 3/20/2009 08:50:00 AM
whoa!!! the BiCEP ppl really freak me out in pet society!! first dana, den yong hong , den erica,den chloe, den yun man. who's next?!
Rant on A.D.D / Thursday, March 19, 2009 @ 3/19/2009 04:00:00 PM
The iPod Human / @ 3/19/2009 03:57:00 PM
/ @ 3/19/2009 03:52:00 PM
whoo hoo~! today is a good day :D
1. 霹雳 MIT showing today
2. now watching vampire knight guilty
3. played at eeyore's house~ wif her and vivienne. played com until lunch time. after dat we went to play badminton and two shuttlecocks got stuck at the roof. nice job vivienne(: den we couldn't stand the heat and went back upstairs to play com :D
/ Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @ 3/17/2009 07:09:00 PM
hello~ just came back from eeyore's house :D we slacked for lyk 2 hours sia... came at 9++ and started work at 11 ;) ate pizza and chicken wings for lunch~ and we finished it all by teabreak (: 

vivienne created facebook account~ ADD HER WHOEVER HAS FACEBOOK haha... and we were spamming clarissa. haha. sry clarissa
/ Monday, March 16, 2009 @ 3/16/2009 05:30:00 PM
HELP~!! ANYONE NOE WHERE TO DO THE KOU SHI THING?! <-- i dun think anyone will be replying -.-

oh wow... it's my 200th post

/ Sunday, March 15, 2009 @ 3/15/2009 10:00:00 PM
kit ying's part was fun. we played in the pool :D, ate, played UNO and stress. overall quite fun just dat:
1. there's this rly irritating security guard hu kept chasing us out of the pool coz we weren't in swimming costumes. $&*%!!! we played lyk dat last year also and no one complained!!. btw, there were 3 complaints so we had to leave D:  (fun fact: it was raining. there was a security guard walking around wif an umbrella and the irritating security guard was walking around wif a raincoat <--- LOL)
2. kit ying's dad is rly fierce
3. very little ppl from 5j'08 came. only got eeyore, cheryl, cherilyn and pamela D:

rating: 3.5-4 stars
/ Saturday, March 14, 2009 @ 3/14/2009 12:38:00 PM
just finish piano theory exam... erhh.... estimated score: 77
can't waitfor tmr~ can go kit ying's party~ den can see all my gd frens :D
/ Friday, March 13, 2009 @ 3/13/2009 09:13:00 AM
JIA YOU EEYORE FOR THE SWIMMING CARNIVAL~!! GET 1ST PRIZE HOR!!
/ Thursday, March 12, 2009 @ 3/12/2009 11:12:00 PM
wow... it's the 2nd time of the week clarissa sat next to ellson. but i'm not so bad la... it's actually kinda obvious dat _ _ _ _ _ lyks ellson (and if u dunno who dat person is, u live in a cave) 
so... i now pronounce ellson and  _ _ _ _ _ husband and wife :D 

and 

i had the houner of saying 'i now pronounce ellson and clarissa husband and wife'  on msn. vivienne and i are gonna be invited as VIPs!! (lol...) we all noe dat _ _ _ _ _ lyks ellson and not clarissa

yay

it's the last day of term one .____. and before u noe it, PSLE has started D: and ended :D
/ Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @ 3/11/2009 10:00:00 PM
today was okay... except for the prefect meeting >.<>.< 
and today is Stammering Day's 1st anniversary~ :D (started by nicole and me) lol...

chinese and higher chinese results out lehh...
chinese: 75.5/90 (my mum scolded me and i got really pissed wif her)
higher chinese: 50.5/60 (heng ah...) -no comments from my mum-
/ Tuesday, March 10, 2009 @ 3/10/2009 05:52:00 PM
today was very fun~ 
miss lam kept making mistake den she said she was going to stand outside the principal's office to beg for forgiveness. XD
mdm koh had to leave early for sup class. so we were let off at 1.45 .___. i bet cheryl was searching for me and eeyore during lunch time. :D and eeyore and i were playing wif sophia,lisa,brendon and zenry. den nicole join in. den the gang of boys join also. and nicole,lisa and cedric went to play table tennis.

lalala~ 0.o i got 677 songs in my ipod 

and...
HAPPY B'DAY SU CHEN(:
/ Sunday, March 8, 2009 @ 3/08/2009 08:07:00 PM
today started buying b'day present for ppl (wow... first time i bought things for so many ppl on their b'day)
su chen: voo doo doll keychain
eeoyre: eeyore
nicole: secondhand serenade CD
cheryl: 唐禹哲's CD
/ Wednesday, March 4, 2009 @ 3/04/2009 11:02:00 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BING YUAN(:
/ Monday, March 2, 2009 @ 3/02/2009 10:37:00 PM
man... 6J gonna be dead meat tmr... sian... rmb the food throwing thing? yea someone called the school and liang lao shi scolded us. poor chloe.... (she was crying)

today did the 'our school our home' thing wif su chen and a girl called victoria. quite okay la... just dat the P2's ideas were abit far-fetched .__. 4J and 5H were very 乖... the only lame thing is dat u hav to repeat wad u hav to say 3 times .___.  
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